I live for my dreams...

Still standing strong

2006-09-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hi my friends! Just a post to let you guys know I'm still standing strong.

It's been the worst July of my 20 years of life, but August is picking up and September is looking good at the moment.
I miss Jasmine, but I believe she is in a better place.
A place without sickness, sadness and sorrow.

To start to appreciate life, one has to understand the ending of lifes. I'm looking forward to the day when I could see her in that wonderful paradise again.
Meanwhile, I'll be struggling down here with all the school works and everyday life problem.

Life's as dreadful as always but promise me you will live up also pal!

My beloved Jasmine

2006-07-02T15:33:00.000+08:00

Her name is Jasmine, she is a pomeranian. Apricot in color, I usually call her Minmin, hoping that she can recognize her name easier with a double same pronunciation word.

She came to our home in 1998; she was so small, so lovely, so soft, so fluffy we thought she was a kitten. But thinking that she might bite, none of us three really dare to go near her.
Dad put her in a cage and we only dare to watch her from afar.

I don't have a brilliant memory, that's why I hope to write down something about her. So even in the future, I wouldn't forget her completely.

I remember it was just the 7th day she came to our home, she was suddenly very ill. We sent her to a small clinic, yet the vet said that she might not be able to treat her and referred her to the hospital immediately. It was a heartbreaking moment for me, I know her for just 7 days and I couldn't bear to see her suffer. When my dad drove us to the hospital, she seems to be so tired… Her eyelid seems so heavy; it was my dad who told me that I had to keep her eyes open, so that she doesn't sleep, doesn't go. I did, and we are all so glad that the hospital saved her.

But after spending 8 years with me, she had finally left me. My mum told me Jasmine's yuan fen, predestined relationship with me has ended... I couldn't accept her death, I couldn't... even now when I'm writing this I find it hard to realize that she isn't with me anymore. She wouldn't be there when I reach home from work or school, wouldn't greet me when I enter the door, wouldn't wag her tails for love and affection, wouldn't bark and growl and she's not happy... wouldn't beg me for her favorite snack.

She is so precious to me, so precious I couldn't explain, so precious I couldn't write with my talent. How could anybody understand when I walk into the room and saw her body, it was lifeless, cold yet still her... her fur was still soft, yet so cold. I called out for her, yet she wouldn't respond, cannot respond.

I cried, grasp for breath, desperately trying to believe that she would recover, desperately clasping to that faint of hope that the people around me had given me for the past one week.
I had a bad feeling from the beginning, but I tried so hard to convince myself that she would be fine. Yet she was still taken away...

I once mentioned that I am a free thinker, for her I told my Christian friends to pray for her, told my sister to sing the scriptures to heal her sickness, I started to eat as a vegetarian to accumulate blessing for her... yet she was still taken away.

My mother and brother told me she had left for a better place and maybe reincarnated into a human. Perhaps 10 years from now, I might stumble across a 10 years old beautiful young girl with the name Jasmine.

Yes, did I mention how beautiful she looked? Every time I brought her outside, people would come near, would whisper nice things about her.
"How cute!"
"What breed of dog is that? She looks beautiful"
She was eight years old and still look like a beautiful, innocent puppy...

How can I ever recover from the wound in my heart?

She survived a majored surgery 5 months ago, and every now and then I've been praising her. Praising and proud of how strong she was.

She was never underweight, yet a super picky eater so she was never overweight either...

We used to buy her so many expensive Japanese brand snacks, ranging from bread to cheese stick yet she would just give a sniff and walk away.
Until we came across a not so expensive made in Thailand meat stick, she gave it a tried and love it so much.

She was a proud dog, never happy when she sees another dog, never happy when another dog tries to approach her. She can be moody at times, a typical Gemini. She can wag her tails at you one moment and try to bite when you've done something to irritate her.

I missed her, I really do... I would do anything to bring her back... even though I know it can never be possible.

She growl and tried to threaten you when you've done something irritating, but as time pass you will realize that she will never bite you. Her teeth were so small it wouldn't hurt.

I missed her terribly, and cannot forget when we brought her to the hospital how badly she hopes to come home. I wanted her to come home also... so badly I cried everyday and everywhere... in front of everyone. I was never seen as a weak person, but I have no choice but to show my weakest side.

I prayed, prayed to whatever god up there watching. Hoping that he can help me, help my Jasmine, but nobody did...

The cruelty of life, I never knew that life can be so cruel...

Every other day I would visit her in the hospital, telling her to be strong, telling her that I would bring her home. Why doesn't she trust me? Why doesn't she believe me? I really want to be with her, I really want to bring her home. I would do anything, everything to save her. I did, I did all I could.
Until the day the nurse told me she could pass away any moment, my heart shattered... I felt so helpless, so hopeless... so afraid that she would really die...

And she did pass away, on the 1st of July, 10.15pm.

Maybe it was a relief for her? So that she wouldn't fall sick again, wouldn't be tortured by sickness and illness?

Have she gone to heaven? The paradise where there is no sickness? Or gone for reincarnation... I don't know…

But I really hope to let her know.

Jasmine...
I love you... I really do. No matter where you are, where you go.
May you be blessed by all the good deeds I have done for you.
I really hope you had enjoyed the times with me, with your family.
I know that I can be nasty at times, but forgive me my dear, I do not mean it.
I want to let you know you are missed, missed by your family. I miss you so terribly, cried so hard I thought I would die from the heartache.
Please, please go to a better place...
And promise me you will meet me again someday in the future.
I want to let you know, I didn't give up on you. I did everything I could, but it just wasn't enough. Mum said that our predestined relationship has ended and there is nothing I can do.
Sorry if you visited and saw me being a crybaby, you knew I was never strong... and can never be strong without you...
and I really love you.

Good bye my dear...

Treasure the times

2006-04-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

I just saw a sentence from xy's blog, it says she learnt to treasure the time spent with her family & friends from the long hours of SIP working.
And that was certainly one of the stuff I've learnt also. I just couldn't stop thinking of my family and friends when i was working. I was just so so happy to learn that there was this good friday that I could skip work one day to spent with my family.
Guess I'm just not meant to be working in office. I never like office job, seriously. And I am really not those kind of people who could stick to 24hours/7days/4weeks/12months doing just the exact same thing. *sigh*
I want to be in control of my life and enjoy my job, not spend it in waste doing a job purely for the salary.
SIP is so tiring I didn't even enjoy playing games and writing when I got home after work. All the times I could have for my story if I'm studying... Oh, I'm just so in love with SP. Huihui let us go to SP together! Their SIP is only one and the half months. Its not too late to quit now! lol...

I DON"T WANT TO WORK

2006-04-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

yes SIP started... I won't say it sucks. Workload is ok, environment is nice, colleagues are ok. Where am I working at? I won't say its name, but it's a big big business news tv broadcasting company. If you know me, you'll know which I'm talking about. Everything is fine, but I just don't like working....

Trust me kids, you will not like to work. Cherish the school times! >_<
Getting into a big tv broadcasting company is like a dream comes true thing, but my workload unlike what I originally thought to be a bit tv related, were very "business". Of course.. 'cause I've been posted to a business department. It's only the 3rd day and I'm so glad that there's a good friday for us this week!!! I just can't stand all the emailings and databasing!

HOW DO I LAST TILL THE END OF THE SIP? Which is 4 months! 16 weeks! 16x5 days week= 80 days!

80 days - 3 days = 77 days left!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFG

Forgive me for the shouting, I'm certainly going crazy. But Luckily, I still have two of my greatest buddies available to lunch with me.

Yvonne! Ah bao! I wanna sing you guys a song!

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live.........

Yeah.. I'm going mad.

Team Singapore! Li Jia Wei!

2006-03-26T11:36:00.000+08:00

I've been so into the Melbourne Commonwealth Games lately.
Well done Team Singapore! Winning is important but I believe it's the effort they put in that counts.

As usual, I've pay more attention to the Table Tennis matches, catching nearly every live telecast at the 7am time slot and 1.30pm slot.

I really like the female table tennis team well! Go go! Sharon Tan, Xu Yan, Zhang Xue Ling and Li Jia Wei!
They have excellent performance as a Team, as doubles and individual! Check out the results in the Team Singapore web =p
But no doubt my favorite is still Li Jia Wei, I've been supporting her since the 2004 Athens! I was so angry when Miss Noisy (Kim Kyung Ah) defeat Li Jia Wei by giving the warcry noise all the time...

But I'm quite sad this time when Li Jia Wei lost the gold medal to a fellow teammate Zhang Xue Ling, but I guess it's because they just know each other too well. The tactics on the table and so on. It's a close match with Li Jia Wei getting 3 and Zhang Xue Ling getting 4 out of the 7 games.

Well, all the best Li jia wei and the other female table tennis players, I hope to see all of them in the Beijing 2008! With the excellent performance Zhang Xue Ling and the young Xu Yan this time round in Melbourne I do see better results in the 2008 olympic!

I just can't wait till Beijing 2008, I think I'll be flying over to Beijing to support the Singapore team! Since my dad is living and working in Beijing now, if he still works in Beijing in 2008. I'll definitely fly over!

xian jian finally on tv

2006-03-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

It has been awhile since I last watched xian jian. Seeing it on tv again brings back fond memories of the times where I stayed up all night to finish a certain episodes with my brother and sister.
In short the story is still enthralling! But reviewing it again makes me see things I couldn't see when I was so blinded by the love of the characters back then.
No doubt xian jian is a successful drama adapted from the game story, but I would strongly encourage xian jian lovers to go try on its pc game. As no matter how the scriptwriter trys to stay original, nothing can be compared to the real game story. It's true, I've played the game roughly 8 to 9 years ago..(I'm old . .) And I could still remember the story that well.
No extra advertising for the softstar company, only play the original xian jian! It's has a first version on dos and a second version on window. Get the second version with better graphics named the Xin Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan. The xian jian 2, a sequel to xian jian original was a big big failure, totally wasted my 39sgd! I haven't tried xian jian 3 but to my knowlegde the game story is of many decades before xian jian itself, I personally don't see any linkage between 3 and the original. Please enlighten me if you know about it. I haven't research myself due to the dissapointment 2 had given me.
So people, go grab a copy of the xin xian jian qi xia zhuan at any pc stores.
I saw many boxes in challenger tampines!

BBq time

2006-03-22T14:36:00.000+08:00

Have lots of fun for the bbq last night, its a shame I can't stay till a later time =p
Anyway, i gotta go back to my brainstorming for more story ideas. Here's a short short aimless video clip which almost includes everybody of the last night's bbq. Enjoy!
Video clip taken with my n70!

lol i know the video is small, go to this address for a bigger version!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=NWiYtKp47Q4

Reality Tv~

2006-03-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

Reality tv programs definitely brings a new height to the media industry. New sparks after many years of dull dramas and fake variety shows. =x

Talking about reality tv programs, I've been staying tune to the America's Next Top Model lately. Ya... I know cycle 5 is long over in America and cycle 6 is starting soon...

My fav is definitely Kim and I'm rooting for Nicole also. She's gorgeous! Yup, I used the word "gorgeous".

I've manage to watch the previous episode without surfing the official web for spoilers, but when Kim was out. I just had to spoil it, if I don't like the winner, I'll stop watching it. =x
The thing about channel 5 is that they always says "Latest on Tv" or something. But except for the amazing race and survivor, sometimes America Idol, every other reality tv programs seems to be spoil-able.

Well I won't spoil the Top Model show for you, but I'll definitely continue watching. :) And obviously, I like the model who won.

Some dedications.

2006-03-02T16:46:00.000+08:00

in fear of my blog being delete for not updating after some time. I've decided to revive it *throw phoenix down*.
A Couple of words for the dear friends who tag me with some form of questions.

XY - I've gone mia =x Hey your website very nice! Next time make one blog skin for me :D

Lynn - Sand project stop me from updating =x Now i will revive it! I love your christmas present!! XD Its now on my desk, next time take pics let you see.

Gina - Happy new year! (A bit late for me to say that... said the same thing during school time already. lol)

Yunqing - Was busy with school projects, I thought I can never finish them lol..

Jermie - Jermie, I wanna dedicate "You're beautiful" from james blunt to you! XD

Robby - Your merry christmas is sure late, how are you doing?

Derrick - Merry christmas to you too! :D

My wish for christmas...

2005-12-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking whole day on what to write on my blog... damn I shouldn't have promise to update it..
Well since christmas is around the corner I might as well write about my wishes.
Now make a guess, what's my wish?
A new ipod nano? (omg i want it!)
Nokia N70? (I'll do anything for it!!)-> jus kidding, though I really want it.
PSP? (Trust me, my sister and brother will do everything for it.) Everything to please my mum and dad i mean.

Above might be a few things I really want, ok I mean "really really want". But I'm definitely not gonna waste my christmas wish on them.
Every year, when christmas is around the corner, I'll reflect on what has been done for the year. Is everything fine? Have I been happy this year?
Usually if this year has been well, I'll start to worry for next year. I've always believe a person will run out on luck, same applies to happiness. There's no happily ever after in real life.

So what is happiness for me?
There's a lot of factor, are my family(my precious dog is included) and friends happy and healthy? Are things going well for me? Have I been getting along well with my brother and sister? What about my friends?

There's a lot of things that money can buy, but very often the most important things are those that money can't. (Health and Happiness.) So why waste a wish on a less important thing which you can get with money eventually?

You might be telling me "but i'm happy now, and i'll be more happy if i got my psp or ipod nano."
But I'll be telling you that your happiness doesnt comes from the psp or ipod nano alone.
Happiness is more spiritual.
I took a look at my mp3(redeem from starhub), I frown because I just can't remember how much I used to like it.
But I smile when I looked at my old old wallet, kept in my drawer. I remember that it's one of my birthday present. From a friend that is in Australia now.
I'm happy when I got this wallet, its a nike "so-call branded". But what makes it so special is that it was from a friend :)

I'm not telling you that you can't wish for a psp, ipod nano or whatever... you can :)
It's just that I hope people nowadays will learn to appreciate the important people around them more.

Ok now back to the christmas wish. So you roughly have an idea of what I'll be wishing for?

Yeah, I sincerely wish for happiness and health for the coming year, not only for myself but for all my family and friends also.

Alright I've been naggy, thanks for reading and good night!

Out of the topic, there's another girl who pm-ed "u r my wc" to my sister's male character in gunbound... It's so common, it's so normal...
In almost every online game my sis plays, she'll make a male char and a female one. And there'll always be a girl stalking my sis's male char...
What is this world coming to?
By the way "u r my wc" means you are my world champion.

A new blog skin

2005-12-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

I've came across this blog skin while surfing the blogskin.com a couple of months ago. Its white and gives a sense of peace and calm. So after that couple of months, I finally decided to "implement" the changes to my blog =x
Well im coming back to blogging! Too late to update now, I'll write something tomorrow!

back to blog..

2005-11-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

oh man finally I'm back to blogging... so many stuff happens during this two months time and I'll not try to write too long on everything. In short I'll summarise them to whats my LIKES and DISLIKES that happens during this two months.

Starting with the DISLIKES
My precious girl(Jasmin) getting sick and had to send her for a surgery. I thought I would lose her forever, I'm so glad I didn't. And I will learn to cherish her even more.

My script effort going down the drain, I hate to admit defeat but I not afraid to tell everyone my script hasnt been selected. Back to why then, I still feel singapore hasnt been open enough to new trends of script writing style but again I did feel my script is too much of a rough work.. *sigh* perhaps I'm just not up to standard.
However, I've pass the period of "depression" over the sad news. I'll read more and try harder next time.

I bet there are more unhappy stuff in the holiday but I couldnt remember the minor ones.. The two above is enough to drag my mood to the pit bottom.

LIKES

Despite the nasty stuff that happens, the good thing is that my jasmin is back well and kicking again!

The Myth, this movie is great. I havent watch a movie that great for some years! A lot of people might not understand why, but this movie has my favorite plot. The past life! And guess what, jackie as an archaeologist! I've always wanted to be a scriptwriter but my job will move on as I go into different stages in life. After script writing, I would go for directing and after everything about movies, its about my passion for history, my lifelong dream of being an archaeologist.

Survivor Guatemala, this show purely rocks. No link to passion, jobs, dream or any kind like The Myth above, I just love this show as it is! Monday to Sunday, I can miss any show on any channel, the hk dramas on 55, animation on 56 but I just can't miss my Survivor Guatemala!

Steph, the survivor palau contestant gets a second chance in guatemala. Argh its a pity I missed the whole palau, I'm waiting for the dvd to be out. Steph is so tough and competitive in the whole game, despite some people complained for her whining.. I still think some form of venting the anguish and frustration is acceptable.

Lene Marlin, her new album "Lost in the moment" or "a moment?".. I can't remember.. -.- but her songs sure rocks. Recommending Still Here, Disguise, What If, Unforgivable Sinner!

James Blunt, you gonna love this guy. Cos either you love or you will hate him for his voice! "You're beautiful" This song is beautiful! Yes it is!

Rain/Full House, I've always like Rain XD~, he's cute!! But the important thing is that his Full House is so nice. Be sure to watch it if you got a chance to.

Sad Sonata, this show is beautiful! Another korean drama I love, nope this show is my favorite korean drama is so far my favorite! Starring Kwon San woo and Kim Hee Sun(The myth leading female, yup the korean princess!) Haha, yes you are right I watched this drama after the myth, I like Kim Hee Sun!

Alright thats all, I'll write more next time.
As for my exam results.. for those who wanna know, I think I did not bad. Pretty nice results overall.

MAFIT - A (I LIKE!)
POM - C+ (It sucks -.-)
EBM - B (OK)
LAIT - B (Haha not bad)
PSQ - B+ (Not bad!)
DBIS - B (What more can I hope for?)

busy school life

2005-08-09T14:09:00.000+08:00

Been some time since I last updated... Happy national day everyone! XD Singapore rocks!
Not much to write about, I've submitted a script for competition recently but I felt its quite badly written, cos I left a large portion till the very last few days to rush through. Nevertheless I'll treat it as an experience.. The deadline is july 25 and I only start working on the script 4 days ago -_-...
Well school life's been fun with a group nice friend this sem, this sem is really rewarding ya! I got to know a big group of nice people =p
Not much special thing to talk about except projects and projects -_-... I'll write more next time XD

New camera!

2005-07-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

yay i've finally bidded a sony camera from ebay! but because it is a oversea camera I might not be able to participate in the sony competition... but nevertheless I'm more than happy to get a 5.0mp sony camera! my last one was a lousy brand 3.0mp i think.. I'm looking forward for the cmaera....
and my first model would be my beloved doggy! XD~

photo~

2005-07-16T09:00:00.000+08:00

xy!!!!!!!
Sony competition
Here's a photo competition to let you join! As long as you own a sony camera with 2.0 mp and above you can join! Provided you register at the official sony website of course! For those who love pornography....oh no! is *photograhpy* =x here's a good chance if you own a sony camera!

Two trips with the Xiao-ShiYi Lang Gang...

2005-07-14T10:17:00.000+08:00

Ahem.. Let me introduce my new all girls group name. The Xiao-ShiYi Lang Gang! Favorite hobby = Taking Photo!!!!!
Argh the name is not finalise yet though, I still think Xiao-ShiYi Lang doesnt sound that nice lol..
The suki trip was fun, now I'm craving for sushi again XD must ask when would be the next suki trip.. but most probably should be during the one month holiday >.< still so far away! Beside the suki, we also went arcade(forever my favorite place).. Rachael impress me with her game-playing skill! Guo rang.. ren bu ke mao xiang! lol the most fun part is the photo taking session outside the arcade and suki with all those movie posters and boards.. check out Miss Isittoolong photo to find out more!
About the trip to yvonne's house with the same exact Xiao-ShiYi Lang Gang, was terribly.. hmm how do I describe? Horrifying lol as in we, we were making so much noise I fear her neighbour would call up the police. Then all the truth or dare stuffs, xy says my card playing skill lousy! I say is she would "chu lao qian"!! One day it will be my turn to win and her turn to lose and wahahahha, thats it for her! The most horrifying thing we did must be Miss Ah Bao who keep disturbing yvonne's brother >.< lol so poor thing =x lol there are too much thing to says too much to talk about.. just check out the photo and see it for yourself lol! *wink* though some exclusively most secretive photo are not uploaded lol! That is for us to know and you to find out what are they! muahuah

SUKI SUKI!

2005-07-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to go SUKI next tues! Now I'm gonna do what I originally intended to do on my exams scripts.. ahem!
SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI SUKI Sukiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii WOohoo!

Camera..s

2005-07-07T18:30:00.000+08:00

I've always thought that the usual camera was cold... digital or film camera it can only capture images.. yes only image... but I want to capture the "moment". At first I thought the only way was through video recording, which was what I did during year 1 sem 1 =x using a stupid digital camera to video everything down. But it was just too hard to share with others -_-....
Finally I found the lomo cameras, which captured the world in a different perspective with the different cameras! Wahaha! I've already bidded one off ebay, just wait for me to bring it to school and take a picture of you! Yes..you!!

At this time i can still blog...

2005-07-07T10:41:00.000+08:00

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results

Warmth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Liveliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Social Assertiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Sensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	22%
Abstractness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Introversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Openmindedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Independence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Tension	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%

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yellow cherries O_o?

2005-07-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

My dad came home with some yellow redish cherries today.. he joked that the cherries cost him over 25 bulks for a 1kg... -_-.....
but knowing the price he bought only half a kg at $12.50..... 500gram.. i counted and found out theres only 30+ pieces..

project pilot!

2005-07-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

I just went to so many people's blog!! lol interesting! I'll tag them one by one when I have the time to do so =p
lol well I seems to be as usual... always so busy XD..
btw anybody wants to join project pilot in making a 1 min short clip, prizes quite attractive.. thought I can get some good pals to do it together during the term break and send it =x
always so many things to do.. gotta finish my 80-120 pages of script during term break also =p lemme know if you are interested ok?

重點人物﹗ Zhong Dian Ren Wu!

2005-06-30T17:46:00.000+08:00

Lemme do some explanation for this term "重點人物", yup this term is sort-of invented by me =x
"重點人物" in the actual terms can be meant as "very important people, or people of the center of attractions. But... this word, under my copyright means "a very important+secret people that somebody like.." lol yup! if you see me shouting "重點人物" around... beware! who knows it might just be you! lol
now do you know 誰是誰的“重點人物”﹗ ﹖

Hi guys...

2005-06-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, for those who wants to know about my dog.. she's alright now though the skin around that area is still hair-less with some scar..
Sorry for not blogging often, been too tired and stress to blog recently..
Everything seems quite fine for me actually though this sem I'm not in the same class with a few of my best mate but everything is fine..
Till my brother and sister got diagnosed with dengue fever... they have been having fever for a few days but at first things just seems to normal till their blood test came out yesterday..
We just came back from the hospital, my sis's platelet* is recovering so she's allowed to stay at home, on the condition that she will go back for blood test everyday until she's ok. But my poor brother...is staying at the hospital as his platelet is way under the normal amount found in a healthy body..
I just hope they will be ok...

my poor dog...

2005-05-14T17:08:00.000+08:00

Reasons why I'm sooo very busy...
here's some pics I wanna share =x warning don't look if you've just eaten your meal.

A sad look on her face :(

A far view on the infected area -.-

Nearer view!

NEAREST...

So what happen?... The Doc says weather is rather hot lately(before the series of rainy days) then my dog skin is dry so she ends up scratching and then... infected wound...
my jobs are... feed her 1 pill 2 times a day and another 2 types of pills once a day.
THE PILLS ARE EXTREMELY HUGE - yes like the pills you gotten from mr/mrs doc :)
-_-... so everyday I will generate new ideas to lure my dog to eat her med..
Then I have to help her apply creams on the wounds, and look at her 2-3hours after applying to make sure she doesnt scratch there!! Oh yeah, I have to feed her with stinky fish -.- docs say she can't eat chicken, pork, lamb and beef! Lastly I have to bath her with the special medicated shampoo once a week....
Lets hope she get well before my school reopens >.< or else there will be no one to look after her..

It's been some time...

2005-05-14T14:15:00.000+08:00

Somebody protest that he/she didn't understand what I'm writing about. hmm, alright I'll try to improve a bit on my writing. But its really interesting to realise some other people do pop in and read your blog. Guess I made another friend, hi mrs/mr mysterious. Do give me more comments ya?
Been doing 2 stuffs lately, 1)Writing story for a competition, 2)Trying to take care of my skin-problem poor doggy :(
No time to write much, guess I'll do the updating another time. Been so busy..

A new game to share!

2005-04-22T16:44:00.000+08:00

I have a new game to share!!
Here's my Kingdom! Go take a look and create yours to join me in my region Divinity!
http://www.nationstates.net/cgi-bin/index.cgi/target=display_nation/nation=rivania

Holiday life!

2005-04-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Miss Link told me to write more about my holiday life... so I thought alright...
Lets talk a little about what I did today then. I finally brought my kiddo bro to make his IC this afternoon, after that I went to bugis's kino for some books and comics.
My brother bought a fantasy book from David Eddie (not sure how to spell..), my sis bought this 絕對男友(Zettai Kareshi) manga which I do not recommend kids to read. Been buying every manga from 渡瀨悠宇(Yuu Watase) from Fushigi Yugi to this recent Zettai Kareshi and another Fushigi Yugi Genbukaiden... I can only say this Zettai Kareshi disapoints me.. From the begining I was quite into the story until epi 3 I completely stop touching the book and can't even bother to read epi 6 (final epi).. Anyway I'll talk more about the manga-s I bought next time. Way too much to mention..
I bought this fabulous jap translated story from the trip to kino, its “在世界的中心呼喚愛情” by “片山恭一” again if you can't see my chinese word please change your browser encoding to unicode.. If you want the english name, here is "Sekai no chushin de ai wo sakebu by Katayama Kyoichi. I haven't start reading yet but I know this is a wonderful novel, yes its about love but there is more meaning to just that. Its about accepting life and death, cycle of life. I recommend you getting the book from kino, lol but sadly the very last copy from bugis kino is now with me.. hmm wait for them to restock ok? =p
So what have I been doing in my holidays?
Mainly writing two stories to submit and reading a lot of books to understand how different authors express their own feeling and such. Boring ya? lol but thats one thing I enjoy doing so much. Of course, I haven't stop gaming. But after playing my rotk 10 and devil may cry 3... there isn't much games that interest me..
Oh and news, I've been watching news quite often lately. Paying special attention to the Anti-Japanese views from all over the world. Want to hear my opinion?
How do I say? hmm, I'm not one who live through the japanese occupation period but I'm definitely not a superficial teenager who basically can't be bothered about such history. History to me, is always a sacred topic. It allow us to study and remember not to repeat the same mistake. History is a way of life, it allow us to know more about how a civilisation is formed, what did they undergo. If you know me, one of my ambition is to become a archaeologist(spelling might be wrong..)
Back to the topic about Japanese, I have to say I can neither forget or forgive what the Japanese did to Singapore and South East Asia. But I'm not anti-jap in exactly.
My fav game? Final Fantasy
My fav song-writer? Utada Hikaru
My fav ost? Game osts by Jap
I listen to jap songs and watch their movies...
I just feel that if you are smart enough to judge on this jap issues. We should know that a lot of problem comes from the Japanese government itself and some old old japanese who still wants to go for their 帝國主義 I dont know how to explain.. 帝國主義 actually means a country which is very self-centered and wants to rule their country in a way that the emperor can control life and death of all people.. it's something like that.
But it's not fair to judge all Japanese this way, actually I met a lot of nice Japanese in FF Online, the Ramuh server. A lot of Japanese there were very nice and polite to the foreigner who speak English.
The younger generation of Japs are less self centered... therefore its definitely not right to "Anti-jap" as its the government that is making most of the trouble. I can only say that whether to change the textbook or not, most younger generation simply can't be bothered...
But if you asked me, I'm definitely against jap government, those stubborn minded ministers. Hmm have you played FFX? Imagine the jap government as the "Maesters"... lol.. alright lets stop talking about this anti jap government thingy.. its more or less a sensetive issue, lastly I have to say "World Peace" A big damn for those war makers.
I'll update you more about the other stuff I did next time.. anyway I'm going for star cruise this coming friday XD

Results out ya?

2005-04-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

Yup results' out, I got 3Bs, some Cs and a D+... pretty bad for this sem. Think I gotta work harder next sem to get average back my GPA... or watever..
Anyway recently I came across something like "get paid watching ad stuff", and my first thought was -.- "who are you trying to kid? get paid watching ad??"..
but as i surf into the forums I realise that are lots of singaporeans in this special little forum corner for singapore talking about the hundreds and thousands bucks they got after surfing for a few months.
Therefore..... i decided to give it a good try. The link is below, do explore the forum a bit and judge yourself on whether you should give it a try or not.
Link

by clicking the link you will refer me when you sign up, i think i will get more credits if you "refer" me... but of course, in any case if you don't want to refer me you can just type the link without the index.php?xxxxxx thing =x

Xian Jian's VCD!

2005-03-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

OMG! Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan is out on the VCD shop already!! Its a lot sooner than wat I have expected...But I did not regretting getting its dvd two months+ earlier online lol the dvd quality looks a bit better than vcd...
The feeling of watching the xian jian trailer in the vcd shop is complicated. I mean I do want more people to know this drama. But I feel a little weird when I see so many people started to buy... i remember trying to promote the show and game to my frens.. I hope people could pay more attention to the game after watching this wonderful show. The game just rocks. Anyway if you are reading my blog and you wanna play the game of xian jian, leave a msg on the tag board or look for me in private. I'll be more than glad to help you look for the game. Be sure to visit this xian jian forum!
http://xianjiansg.forumer.com/

Xian Jian Singapore Web!

2005-03-15T17:57:00.000+08:00

A bbs made by a Singaporean! Xian jian qi xia zhuan Singapore board!
懷夢仙劍- 仙劍奇俠傳與相關演員新加坡討論區
Come visit if you are a Xian Jian fans too =x
http://xianjiansg.forumer.com/

Talking about games... and story

2005-03-14T15:42:00.002+08:00

Was talking about games with Raymond-san last night, lol I found out he's pro at gaming. Very pro =x I remember the trip to TM, I was watching him playing the Time Crisis 2... he nearly got to the end with just 1 credit...
After some talking, I found out we belongs to a different group of gamers, he played all types of games - action, adventure, rpg, strategy and real time stuff. But me, I prefer rpg, only rpgs... Maybe some adventure and action at times but I will never bother to complete them. For strategy, I only play Romance of the three kingdoms and KOEI games... no others.
Raymond looks out for game play, graphics and all those in games...
But for me... only one crucial factor, that is the story...

I was never a good gamer, as in I'm never pro in gaming. Gaming is one of my favorite hobby but never my forte. Of course I'm pro-er than those who never touch games before =p but in the sense of understanding the story, I'm confident I'm better than a lot of those gamers. Why? No, no it's not because I write story...
It's because I play games with my heart. It might sound mushy but it's true. I only like rpgs, because you experience the story yourself... not like other types of games... those that you have to focus a lot of the hack and slash stuff.
I told Raymond-san I couldn't pass ff7 disc one, the part that Aeris died. Why? I don't know... I just can't bear to see Aeris die... hmm come to think of it I've cried couple of times for ff7...
Not forgetting my beloved Xian Jian, the FF in the Chinese game industry. I've shed tears for it when Ling-er perishes with the water monster. Those games have a special power, a power to reach out for people's heart. Nothing can be compared to the games. Not movies, dramas...

For the love of FF, Xian Jian and some worthy rpgs I've played, it sort of inspired me to go into story writing.

For story writing - I count it as a mini-forte. Something I'm a little good in.
Somebody once told me "Wining Ek's story writing competition three times doesn't means anything."
Thank you, I'll bear it in mind... for that is exactly what I thought also.
Ek's community is like 300 to 600 frogs living in the well.
I'm one of the frogs that manage to win the story competition three times in a role, but that doesn't means anything. Because, I'm only competing with the frogs in the well and one day I've decided I don't want to be one of them.

Participating in those big competitions allows me to gain experience. But it's also my first try in writing Chinese stories for competition... those short stories written for Ek are English.
Talking about the script competition a couple of months ago, still no news... nevertheless I'm gonna put in more effort in the coming competition!
Some people asked me if I'm afraid to lose. Hmm... I believe there are two types of people, one that really wins and those who make others believe he won.
I'm not going to be the second one. Though I'm aiming to be the first person, I believe it's perfectly alright to lose. You are a braver person to admit defeat, rather than those who believes that they have to win every time.

A lot of people might disagree with what I said though, but if you agree, congrats! You belong to the same group of people with me! =p
Emmy-san!

thoughts.........

2005-03-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

finally i can have some time to reflect on my thoughts.. im having a week of study week before the exams starts..

my coursework grade? bad..
compared to my As and Bs last sem.. this sem is full of Bs and Cs.. disappointed? yup I'm sure disappointed with myself. who can I blame anyway? I havent been putting in efforts in school work and skipping lots of lectures like nobody business -.- well hope i can get some good grade with my exams and aim to get at least a B for all..
Read christine's blog.. life's unpredictable as it is, unbelievable as it may be.
but again.. no matter what happens life's goes on. I'm pretty glad I'm not troubled by all the love lifes and stuff. hmm come to think of it, how long is it since i last have a crush on someone? lol.... millions of years ago =x

Time Flies... this sem is coming to an end so soon.. nope it had officially ended.. I havent even got my chance to know my class mates more. Well, I'm glad I've gotten myself a good comskill project group though. My most enjoyable times in this class are the times I've spent with them. My sexy and cool leader Justin, cheeky and abit blur nadia =x, ever-so-hardworking and friendly pei lian, serious-in-her-work but easy to talk to fashiha and the fun and loving mad Lynn.. lol.. I'll remember you guys. Well, of course I hope to see you guys in next sem also! Not forgetting my last sem classmates.. you guys are always in my "want to be classmate with" top list!

Enough to talk about school, I'll talk abit on my latest work..
looking for a fresh idea for my new story. Im near to Jiang lang Cai jing.. dunno wat it means? come ask me lol.. no nice songs = no inspiration for story. Hmm im gonna look out for the mtv channels now... waiting for nice songs! Btw... no male chinese pop.. i dun really like those lol..

A competition..

2005-03-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

I hate school...... why? Too many work too little time!! Ok, let's not talk about school stuff.
Recently, I came across a story writing competition. Its in chinese.. its limited to 5,000 to 20,000 words. Well, for those who know me in story writing, you should know I only know how to drag and write long story lol.. It seems almost impossible for me to shorten any of my story.
The last story I've completed has been sent 3 months ago, but the results are not out yet. That story you have to write at least 80,000 words.. in one month I wrote 100,000+. Its more to a script than a story, stressing more on the tension, highs and lows of the story rather than the language. But this competition is different, it stress more on the language.. well its a big challenge to me. 5,000 to 20,000 by two months, not a difficult thing, means more time to write and think of ideas. Its due on the 10th of May, I'll probably start writing it after the exams.
Now the plot and ideas.... I'll write more when I'm free..

my love!

2005-02-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

Why I've not been bloggin.. school life has been busy.. thats one reason..
the other reason is xian jian.. I've just watch the ending a couple of days back. I told myself I can't cry over the ending and thought I wouldnt.. but I did.. aww not again.. then xian jian just left me empty, lost in thought, don't feel like studying, don't feel like doing anything..
I think nobody can understand how I felt about xian jian. Yeah its a drama, its a drama from game. That is my favorite game of all time for PC!!!!! Like FF7 on PS.... It's been more than 6 years.... so long I couldnt remember when i first started playing xian jian.. haiz.. I'll talk more about my life next time.. christine's been complainin i talk too much about xian jian..
owww xian jian!!!

Ling Er in Xian Jian (main female char)

HaPi chinese new year!

2005-02-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year.....
Today I'm going to talk about my preparation for the new year =x...... i sounds formal ya? lol been doing too much of com skill i guess.. okok back to the topic.

Every year is the same.. shirt, pants, shoes blah blah is the same so lets skip that part, not many interesting thing to write also. Lets talk about Xian Jian Again! LOL.. My xian jian dvd arrive today lol I'm soooo happy! Although it's only the part one and one cd is missing =x I called back to the seller and she told me she will help me check out if it's really missing one disc. I'm not too worried about it since I also ordered part 2 from her, I trust that she will do me a good job.
After my dvds arrive, my mum brought me, my "annoying" sister and brother to TM to shop.. She wasnt in a very good mood as she mention losing 400 bucks in the majong(forgot spelling X_X is it) game last night. We were there at 9++ and the crowds.... -_-... it seems like everything is free of charge..
My mum went into tm to shop while my sis took me and my bro to visit the game shop nearby =x bought a few games that will acompany us thru the new year lol though I dont really like they bought... I'm more into rpgs while my sis is into Koei's strategy and bro into actions.. -.-
ok so after that we walk back to tm.. and saw my mum carrying a big big bag... and it's SK2?? My mum gave us a big smile and said "hey I bought a whole 400 bucks of stuff".... -.-.. ok i was thinking plus the money you lost yesterday you could have bought me a psp... >.<
.. OMG.. I think gotta go lol. I'll continue my tm trip some other time =x

Flu virus attack!

2005-02-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

Warning, Edi-san you are being attacked by the deadly flu virus! Lv 83, Str 108, Dex 200, Int 105, Luck 200...
@-@ my running nose got worse... from some sneezing to regular sneezing to tap water running down the nose.. Now I'm tracking down the culprit... who pass the running nose to me..
Well a number of people around me are currently carrying the flu virus.. But does that means I have to get it also? ~><~ Ok don't mind me I'm talking shit now... gonna faint soon.. AH CHOO!!
Happy new... a...h..hchoo! year..

Long time no blog! =x

2005-02-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

What a title... lol
Ok so what's up... My sis is there to ask me again.. Isn't it a bit pervertic* to keep a blog and record everything you do everyday. Then I was saying... ok first, its not pervertic ya? A blog can help to update your everyday thingy for your frens that aint in the same school with ya.. Second, who update his/her blog everyday btw? =x Third, say it again and you are insulting lots of bloggers outo there lol.
Ok, ok... I know it's been some time since i last seriously blog... so I'm gonna update you once and for all!

Helpful Tips: To search for any keywords, you can press Ctrl+F to search! (lol!! =x)

::Christine:: First day of school back from the holidays I didnt manage to see her, she seems to be missing in action... I read her blog and notice that she's having some problems lately. Haiz, but I really didnt know how to help, I can again only hope that she's ok, and crack some jokes for her in school. But now I'm gonna comment on her hair =x The first thing we all got excited about on Tuesday morning before Business Stats Lecture. Her new hairdo! lol, well all of us knows that she needs to go for a hair show on this Sunday, therefore the hair stylist cut her hair a week before. We were at the library when she finally show up, lol but too bad she was wearing a cap. She warned us not to jerk her cap off or she will be really mad =x well I'm not really tempted to since I know she really can be pretty mad. But then after two days of bad hair + cap day, she appeared without her cap this morning. And I was..... O_O her hair is pretty well done. Stylish enough to join the design school lol, yeah how bad can a pretty girl's hair be :P ya christine? lol gogo join the design school! You don't look so "business" =xxxx

::HuiHui:: This huihui san has been asking me about her Twin Cd forever... But then I remember I promised to get it for her! Despite all the difficulty I've been through, I managed to get it! Muahuahua =x lol hopefully the shipment will arrive from yesasia this saturday though...

::Iris:: *Ding ding* 1 more name added to my "Long Lost Friend" list which basically contains my secondary school friends, whose contacts had been missing since I last move house... yay! now I've gotten the contact of YunQing, SiewChen, Cindy, Chuen Hong, Woan Ting, Rachael and now Iris! (Names might be spelt wrongly =x) So glad to see her one fine day after my jap cds, I was rushing to my Comskill 2 project meeting and suddenly saw this familiar face appear directly infront of me. Then the name appeared in my mind "IRIS!" Due to the rush of time, we didnt managed to stay and chat for long >.<, well life is just too busy in school... but still we exchange contact and promised to keep in touch! XD Hope to see more and more of them from my sec 1's Xtra's group =p

::Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan:: I'm so charmed by this drama, by Ling Er.. if you have been reading my blog you should know that Xian Jian is actually a game I've play a million years ago at Hong Kong... well not exactly a million lol.. But ok.. that fact that its a great game remains! I still remember it was a dos version, then played the window's version at 2000+ one of the year I couldnt remember. Its a great game with great story plot and great characters. This drama series they made for the game is great, bringing out the best of the story plot and adding life to the characters. I just simply love it! >.< Liu Yi Fei gogo!! I'll support you forever!

::Wishlist:: Just as I was wondering if I should put up a wishlist... -_- I just realise I've got so much stuff to buy..
*) My Xian Jian DVDs + Novels + Screenplay compilation!
1) PSP - a must get!! I'm getting it sooner or later for sure!
2) FF7-Ac - It's not out yet but I'm saving at least a hundred of my ang bao money for this.
3) FF12 - . . . . another ff production thats gonna cost me a bomb, hope the story would be good. I've been waiting for it for a such a long time after the crappy ffonline that cost me $300++ for the game disk + guidebook + a couple months of subscription..
4) KH 2 - ... I want to see Kairi again!!! (argh spelling wrong??) Other than that... i just hope the leading male remains as Sora...
5) Clouds Phone! What model was that? -.- I know it's panasonic foma.. something.. is it Pv900i? cannot really remember.. but its info is so easy to get! Not the phone though..

Ok nothing more at the moment.. but I bet more will be coming in..

::Test Result:: Here comes the most important part of my blog entry today =x My Term test results.. lol For those who wants to know.. so far I got back 3 test results + a compiled assignment results.
Business Statistic - 40/50 (Not too bad, an A, but could have done better..)
Accounting - 33/40 (I'm happy with my accounting results! =p)
NMM - 37.5/50 (. . they marked so damn strict! I was aiming for 3 As and now... ARGH a B+)
Comskill - B+ (Compiled results for the 3 assignments of communication skill 2 adding up to a 35% is a B+ not too bad as a result, but damn my interview pulled me down. Or with my fabulous com skill group I could have gotta an A..)

Now I'm waiting for my econs result.. which I will get tomorrow... for that I don't hope to get A, B or whatever. I just hope I pass lol.. Micro-econs is so much harder than marco.. which I got a B+ for the subject -_- i just hope I can get a D for Micro this time..

::artpad:: Last thing I want to mention is that out of extreme boredom, my sister came across this thingy, and she's been addicted to it ever since! Here's a painting she did using the artpad.
http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?ibbw211aud10
(** This guy in the picture is Edi and Edi is me while Kas aka alf is my sister =x in case you dunno it's our online rpg characters names! lol.. it's also the names of my story characters Edisonal and Kasuya both males of course..)

Well I've written so much. Thats all for now I guess lol..

MY FAV!

2005-01-29T13:18:00.000+08:00

The drama I've been waiting forever... Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan! I was sooo crazy over it last time, partially because I can't get it yet, maybe. Once I heard the news that Xian Jian is finally out, I went really really despo for the drama. I want to seee >< but then again, I saw a bit of the drama summary and realise things aint turning out my way (seems the scriptwriter change quite a bit of the story), but then lets wait till i watch finish the first 20 epi then decide. Guys if any of you spotted the drama outside! Besure to inform or gimme a call!

10++ days without bloggin!

2005-01-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

Its been 10++ days without blogging, so what's up these days?
School work took over me completely, my mind has been emptied, blank-ed for the two weeks... No story writing, no inspiring dramas, no chance for even a movie. (Though I watched kung-fu, I don't see it as inspiring... lets talk a little about kung fu then. Well in a director's view, the film is very nicely shot, the way he presented his ideas can very much attract the audience, and the impact is there. But talking about the story itself, I can only say it's simple, but maybe it's the simplicity that attracts. Well I can only say it's not my type of movie, I always prefer less action more story kind.)
Ok so continue from the no chance for a movie - I want to see Phantom of the opera!!! Hopefully I'll be able to catch it someday next week, which is a term break of a week! Ok, ok usually quite impossible to go catch it though, most prob I'll be at home resting.. It's been a tiring new year for me. >.<
The simulated roleplay interview last week just scare the shit out of me... (a little vulgur..) something i hate about being the interviewee, you have to wear formal!!! But on the average its pretty alright, as usual I talk my crap through, what am I pro in? Talkin craps as usual.
I never had a schedule thingy but perhaps I have to start to keep one. I seems to never be able to keep in track with my school work and it's so fast. It's like I've just started school and term test is here, then my exams would be around soon.....
About exams if you want to know, I could tell you a little too =x three's down!! NMM, Bus Stats and Acc, I can only say the three papers looks so far so good. Hopefully this year results would be better than last years!
*yawns* forgot what I wanted to continue... well I'll continue blogging another day =x

A crush? nope...

2005-01-08T15:42:00.000+08:00

Its about 2 weeks from the tsunami disaster... we could only donate and pray for them...
Time to talk a little about myself...
School as usual, was busy. Rushing proposals for nmm, resume and cover letter for Comskill. But besides the project deadlines everything else is quite ok, hang around christine and huihui most of the time during breaks. ^_^
Yesterday I went over to tampines mall with christine, lol it's actually my first time to go out with christine, yeah i don't like to go out a lot.. i hate crowded place and crowded areas X_x thanks to christine she's willing to go to tm to help choose a gift for my cousin. I even joked with her "I really dont like tm, cos i always meet my close fren from previous schs, and the thing is you dunno if you are gonna wave to them or not... if you wave and they dun wave -_-.."
We went looking for billabong wallets but none are nice =x maybe i'm too picky with gift =x after awhile christine went to look for her god mum and dad and i went home.
When I exited tm, at the traffic light outside tm, a small traffic crossing. I heard a very familiar voice, a girl's laughter. I turned to my left to trace the voice and I saw her. I was stunned in the first place, I didnt say hi, but I just turned the other way round and walk away. She was a very close school friend, but as I left school we lost contact just like that. I changed my house number and stuff... but i also felt that she has got more other friends to hang around with at that moment...
I didn't go up and say hi to her... I know we got nothing to talk about anymore. We would just be those Hi and Bye friends, it's just so sad. For a friend that you have share so many things with.. and now she is just somebody whom u say hi and bye? Life is like that... but why didn''t i have the courage to even say Hi? I doubt many of you reading won't understand what I'm feeling...

UNICEF

2004-12-30T11:36:00.000+08:00

People all over the world can donate to help the victims of the Tsunami via UNICEF online.
https://www.unicefusa.org/site/apps/ka/sd/donor.asp?c=duLRI8O0H&b=277271&en=imIYI7OQKgKZLbPULgKRK9PVKrLbJpM4IpI2JbMSKeL1LvK
Again, before you made any online donations. Check throughly that the website is reliable.

Donation.

2004-12-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

Help the victims of the Tsunami! From december 30th 2004 on, Singaporeans will be able to donate through sms, phonecalls and atm. For detail story please visit this link. http://sg.news.yahoo.com/041229/5/singapore124627.html

If you are not a Singaporean, you can donate to tsunami victims from this link or some other source. https://secure.ga3.org/02/asia_earthquake04
but before you make any donation, please check that the organisation you are donating to is reliable.

If you are thinking of spending your extra cash for a new cd, game or some activities. Please try to spare a thought for the victims and do a little part in helping them. No, you won't get any prize for any donation you made, but trust me, you don't need a reason for helping others :)
...because if you can spare that 10 dollars, you are the more fortunate one, so why don't you reach out for the less fortunate?

Helpless.

2004-12-29T19:15:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so helpless. Watching the news, the victims of the deadly tsunami... while I can't do anything to help them. The deadly water came, caught most of the people defenceless, smash them to buildings, drown them... I always cannot understand why such things happens... why?
From the 7.00pm news, an indian young girl, was one of the victim of the tsunami. She was crying by the roadside, she looked so lost, so despair... I wonder what happen to her now? Does she have something to eat? Somewhere to stay...

Life is as unpredictable as it may be.
But the world is as untrustable as it always is...

I'm not devoted to a religion, but to all the different gods of the different religions. For the first time, I seek your help. I pray that you would give them your blessing, help the remaining survivals to pull through this period of disaster... please...

Friendster part 2 (about testi -.-)

2004-12-27T01:58:00.000+08:00

Well my friends if you are reading this.... I have to say sorry! =x sorry and thanks to those who had add me on friendster and wrote nice testi for me. Some is just a bit too good, I havent realise I'm such a wonderful person lol.. in fact I'm really flattered (spelling wrong ya?) You might think I'm helpful but I sometimes I really think I'm just busybody. I really have a lot a lot of bad points and I used to be a very slacky + irresponsible person also.. Any way lemme write nice testi for you guys next time ya? I will struggle thru this poly sem first, then during the long long holiday I write nice testi for everyone in my friendlist! hoho!
Again, I have to stress on that I dont like friendster... its buggy, its laggy... but I've got no choice, seems that if I want to keep in contact with my already lost pri sch and sec sch friends.. I have to keep using it. >..< but maybe not at the moment, maybe during the holidays. So I could add every single of them and write them testi..
Its getting late, you might ask me why I've been writing so much blog lately.. reason = cos i change my layout! yay! it helps really! So raymond, huihui and those that havent been bloggin lately please go change your template, it give you the motivation to write! I could help out with the template stuff also!

Cherish your life.

2004-12-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

It's sunday early in the afternoon, i was as usual flipping through my chinese reference books after helping my mum with the clothes.. yeah its a lot, one week of clothes and we only have time to fold then, iron them on sunday. After a while I went on net, checking blog and stuffy.. I clicked on the Next blog button on top of a friend's blog and saw something.. quite unbelievable.
I saw a girl who had an aim, she wanted to be a pretty girl and has been working hard for her goal. But recently she has been diagnosed with cancer... I couldnt explain the feeling when I saw the blog... I just felt that life is so unpredictable.. yes, if you are thinking.. those little things I've seen on the web affects me a lot, especially someones journal.
As I recall I havent been a healthy person all of my life, born with asthma from young. Though its not always life threatening. But I remember a few times when i was in my primary school and asthmas was so bad that I was afraid to sleep, afraid that I might not wake up after I slept.
I've seems to forget the way I cherished my life when I was young, I've gone through failures after failures in my upper secondary school life and I wanted to commit suicide. I felt that life was so meaningless that I dont want to live to think of my problems anymore, I thought I couldnt take it... I had to die. But of course, I survived! Thanks to that somebody who hurt me, the worst is over... I've overcome everything and will overcome anything now.
I'm actually very afraid of death now. Why? Because there are just so many things left undone for me, I have to earn a lot of money for my parents, I have to take care of my kiddy sis and bro. I yet to complete my stories. I just can't bear to think that one day, I have to leave them...
But again... if something is meant to be, it's meant to be. I believe that fate is in my own hand.. but that is if you don't count in those accidents or sudden fatal illness. These things are unpredictable, something that you wouldn't wish for and wouldn't know when it's gonna happen to you.
So... I'm gonna live my everyday to the fullest, putting a hundred percent in everything I do. If something really bad happens to me, I wouldn't regret the days I've live through from this moment.

I believe that only when you learn to cherish your life, then you have the right to love others. You have to love yourself before loving others.

Xmas~

2004-12-26T01:30:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm back home..... X_x I'm really tired... been quite a wonderful day of christmas, as usual this day would be celebrated with my cousins without fail XD! I have 2 aunts, one of them have 2 girls and the other one have 1 boy and 1 girl. Average age is about 9 to 13... yup I've always been the oldest... With my kiddy bro and sis + me, it will be 7 kids, well that is if I count myself as a kid also =x yup, we have always been quite close, and i always remember them as cute little kiddos... the last time I've seen my cousins was actually about a few weeks ago? And now, after taking a good look at them, I realise they have all grown up a lot O_O I felt so old... well maybe a few more years! I'll be 23 and and they all will be 14 to 19... woohoo we can all go KBox together! =x well I'm looking forward to it ^_^..
And it's yuling's bday soon, I wonder what I can get her... a cd ^_^ that will be good i thought. When I'm 13 I'm all mad about idols, lol though I'm still mad about idols now...

Merry Christmas!

2004-12-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

It's Christmas! Its time for a change, a new template for my blog! It will keep my motivation to carry on blogging XD Well, mr ray comment that its a little pinklish... well at first I thought it's too feminine for me also... but again the design is just too nice to reject! Well for me it's either the simplest or the most complicated =x I've had the simplest and now its time to show some complicated style hoho ho! again the first question for christmas was "where is the L2 engine??" by mr ray -_- well sad to say.. but I'm gonna give up L2! Its been some time yet stupid sunny havent migrate over yet! Jermie went back to ek somemore >< Mr rays L2 is down! Kasuya and Cas already gave it up! Nobody will be there for me in L2!
Again... nevermind I guess I'll put in more effort in studying! Hohoho! I wanna get at least all Bs, As are better of course ^_^ Speakin of As, please wish me luck for my coming jap test! Hope I can at least pass! guess its for now! Merry Christmas to all! "off to study jap!"

Special thanks to the author of the template.

2004-12-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

This template is gotten from BlogSkins, made by a wonderful girl. I'm here to thanks her specially for the skin, it's really nice. But I hope she don't mind me messing with it though ^_^ll I've change a lot of text and some styles. But don't worry, her links and copyright are all that! Thanks for the template!

Christmas soon!

2004-12-23T19:40:00.000+08:00

Its Christmas soon, hmm don't ask me what is Christmas for lol I don't know... I only know Christmas is a day where you give and get a lot of presents... where that's another thing of course. Talking about school, its as busy as ever... Com skill project is giving me quite a lot of problems, the peer teach is due next Monday. I still haven't manage to go through the frustrating Bus stats... With a jap test coming on next wed, I wonder if I could ever cope with my studies. I wonder what went wrong, with everybody at ease this sem I seems to be rather panicky* then I realize it's because I was rushing that Tian Long Ba Bu at the first week =_= slacking a bit in the first week and it ends up with a nasty following few weeks.
So what's with school friends? Well, Christine as usual, she looks like she's so occupied outside school. She seems to be quite happy this few days, don't really dare to ask her more on what's happening though. Just hope she can be cheerful as ever and get over unhappy things. Merry Christmas!
About Huihui, she seems to be more cheerful nowadays! Always chatting around and enjoying school, though she looks as blur and as late as ever. Lol but that's the huihui I know, if she's not late then something must be wrong =x I'll be really worried lol. She look very fashion nowadays though a bit ah lian... but huihui if you are reading this, I support you! Your new look very chio ok =p
I'm really missing my old sem friends, though it's not like I know everybody in my old class that well till the extent that we chat about those"xin shi"but it's the familiarity that I'm looking forward to. It will be so nice if we are all at the same class, at least we felt at ease with one another...

Busy and busy..

2004-12-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

Am I busy? yes! very... if u see me on msn, I'm usually away... why? cause I'm doing my never ending homework or revising some stupid tutorials... Homeworks.. is it really alot?
No, not really.. if u want to get a pass or fail the subjects you are taking. But for me there seems to be just too much for me to learn. -_- business statistic is hard, if you got some careless mistake (which i always made) at the begining, you will get everything wrong.. this is crazy, numbers are driving me crazy. Accounting 2 is ok.. but again it will get harder. MicroEcons is ok, but again my econs teacher this sem told us from the begining that he isnt an econs teacher exactly, he specialise in some other biz subs ._.ll my god, wats the world coming to? Everyday there seems to be something to do, homeworks, project, online works and blah.. do i even have spare time for myself? ><><

ps: Nope dun ask me on the script results. Its not out yet...

my ambitions, its not a far away dreams anymore.

2004-12-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

'm so happy, so very happy! For the first time in my life, I felt that my dreams are no more a dream, its now a possible thing for me to fulfill, it is an ambition. An ambition that I know I will be able to reach if I work hard enough.
I like to write scripts for screenplay, I like to write stories. I knew from the start I would go into the media industry, but I didnt what position I'll be at. A freelance script writer? A novelist? By chance I got to know a BeiJing Film academy. Its a academy about movies. I have never thought of entering a china university at first but when I first saw the director's course, I was stunned. I yearn to become a director even more than I've ever thought. I really really want to let others see how I present my own script! Yup, thats my biggest dream.
I research a lot, the different courses, how the system work and stuff. I'm so lucky, I found a girl that was in the director course, got her msn somewhere and asked her about the course at msn. What was more unbelievable was that she link me to her singapore friend who was studying at beijing film academy now! Oh man, lady luck is surely with me! ~><~ I'm so happy I got to know this singapore girl! At least I know that its possible for a singaporean! We chatted for a while and really gave me some useful info! Now I'm really planning to go over to china to pursue my dreams, but for the time being. I will planned how I can convinced my mum and dad first! Or even if I cannot. I can always finish my poly degree, work and save enough money first!
I finally found my path in life! yay!

Bad com..

2004-12-13T15:13:00.000+08:00

Nice day with only a 2 hour lessons and a short group discussion. But.... the moment I step into my house, I heard this scream "hey jie, com cannot use again leh!" -_-ll not again.... i went over to that stupid com and decided to boot it up and try to figure out whats wrong.. hmm so the problem was... with the keyboard... seems that the keyboard cant be detected X_X

First thing I've done was to check on the hardware thingy at the control panel and there wasnt any keyboard x.x... so i went to look for the driver that comes with my keyboard and of course.. its gone.. its been so long who the hell will know where i've place my cd lol... to think that i even misplace my keys, phones, remote controls stuffy =x sooooooo i decided to search on the web for keyboard drivers ^_^ aint i smart? but... the prob is how do i search without a keyboard.. how do i even type 0o? Nevertheless i manage to open a window keyboard program helping u to type with every click of your mouse! yaay! Ok after all the trouble of the installing + everything, my keyboard still dont work x.x look up the troubleshoot and they mention about "maybe your keyboard is not plug properly, maybe its at the wrong plug" thingy and it doesnt help a bit... I confirmed with my kiddy bro twice and he nodded at me saying that he was sure he plugged the keyboard into the correct plug. Well its a too simple task for him to deal with, considering that he was always into hacking stuff, so I didnt doubt him. hoho with no idea whats wrong with the keyboard I decided to ask cheese!!!!

cheese as usual was always helpful... but the moment i started talking to the main point of the keyboard problem, my sis made a check at the plug itself and realise its plugged wrongly.... -_-ll oh cassa! What a dumb ass!! What a silly mistake you made... you only know how to play game+bug abuse+bot+hack X.x

my system look!

2004-12-12T15:17:00.000+08:00

hey ppl! take a look at my new xp visual theme look XD! nice?
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v257/edisonal/desk.jpg
note: pic size too big, dun wanna spoil my blog with the pic =x please open new window to see lol

This is a window xp visual theme done with "style xp", the effect is quite nice XD~

School started!

2004-12-12T14:47:00.000+08:00

Sch has already started for a week!! woooo its been a busy school week with stupid 2 - 3 hours break in between lessons =x finally found my way to relax during the weekends hoho! but spent it on watching tian long ba bu + researching on various ancients chinese sites and mountains + liu yi fei =x ok you might not understand what I'm talking about. So let me explain... I've actually started plotting on a Wu Xia Novel from sec 3, 15 years old. Plotted the basic storyline and fix the characters, the various martial art + researching on the dynasty blah blah... Its a tough job, cos though my chinese is alright, it wouldnt be very possible to reach those average wu xia novel author's standard at my age. Well do wait for my this novel ok? lol okok i understand, most of my friends can't read chinese =x especially i'm writing this in traditional chinese format...
Lets talk more about my story next time.
So what happen in school?
I'm in the same class with christine! Yup! Its a happy thing! Though she seems still as mysterious as she was + with minor** mood swing at times =x lol kidding. Actually I know sometimes she's down, maybe because of some family stuff or relationship stuff.. And Huihui! her blog is soo dark in colour, a bit too dark for her real life character =x she seems to be in a great mood last week lol.. I just hope my friends around me can be happy always!
Guess thats it for today.. rushing back to my tian long ba bu!

What I've been doing lately?

2004-12-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

yup.. its been quite some time since i update my blog =x I'm sorry! ~><~ Been quite busying chionging my lineage 2 cleric lol. Alright besides that, one thing i wanna say! Sch Has reopen!!!!!! hmm its a bad news of course =x that means i will have to chiong my studies again for at least 3 months. Whatever i do, i believe in doing for the best. I got an average B for all the subs last sem which i thought was pretty -_- wasted... I'm gonna aim for better grades this sem wahaha!
ohhh if you asked me what I've been up to lately (lots of people asked me this question), I've been writing story (forever), playing lineage 2 (its a mmorpg..) and watching Tian Long Ba Bu, channel 55 is showing every sat but I couldnt sit down and wait to watch the 2 epi every sat so i downloaded it =x Its a seriously really nice drama, the original story is by Jin Yong of course..
yeah, i have not really been going out with friends.. maybe I'm already passed that periods of chionging outside. Met up a few old friends recently during the holidays and brought back pretty memories ^_^... i still remember when i first started going out with my pri sch frens when we are pri 3? lol yup my pri 3 to 6 life were full of craps, skipping sup lessons, cca, copying homeworks + ktv at my friends house.. then sec 1 to 2 even worse, everyday after sch was like "alright lets head to parkway" its already an everyday routine. Sec 3 and sec 4 were slightly better, a change of sch change the way i see things, i began to learn a lot to cherish my family. I still prefer staying at home to chiong lineage 2 + watch drama with my very bad tempered sister and crappy brother XD and not forgetting my online promised knights pals! (not only pk pals of course! there are some special ppl outside pk thats very important! like hoshi!!!) They are very important people in my life! Yup, its my life not just gaming life! Well, if you asked me, I'm happy the way I'm living my life~ Life rocks!

Aloha ppl!

2004-11-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

Finally I've finished my 100,000+++ words story! OMFG i can't believe it man... it sure took a lot of determination to keep glued to my seat and type everyday... true i love story writing but if u know me it's definitely not like me to finish a long story so fast =x well I like to apologise also to those that email me and i havent reply, those that ask about me and I ignored =x and lastly those that sms me and I've not msg back =x I'm simply too busy to look at any web or phone =x

Talking about this script competition, the chance of me winning is silm, but nevertheless I'm still willing to give it a try.. I will just have to practice more to write more beautiful words. My story is great I can say but compared to those taiwans, hong kong and China ppl... my chinese is wayy tooo "surface" I'm not that pro in using "beautiful words" to decorate the story =x well my entry for this time ends here. Off to play lineage 2 XD, where my beautiful hamsum mystic awaits!

to the friends

2004-11-02T13:36:00.000+08:00

I missed a lot of birthdays!! Hui Hui's and Mr Ray's and I also missed out a very important girl bday I think! Hopefully not!!!! I'm sorry pals =x i might have miss out more friends birthday but I really cannot remember =x Apologises!! I have say a big sorry to those I have forgotten your birthday and wish u guys a happy belated birthday!

argh.. i know i sucks at my memory...

A lot of people asked me... hey huixin why didn't I see you write any very unhappy or sad things at your blog, you were talking craps most of the time... even those entry you wrote on your days when your mood was consider bad was so mild. The reason? because I forgot things easily... things seems so easy to be forgotten nowadays, i was again talking to alf one day and we were sort of arguing about something and she shouted at me and said, you said the same thing to me that time when we are quarrelling about something else don't you farking remember?... Then I go... ?_?.... "did I?"

Actually there are really a lot of unhappy things in my life also, i quarrel with my bro and sis but I know I love them and they love me, I scold my dog and she wanted to bite me but I know I love her and she love me also lol.. ok ok serious..

Serious, I met people who are out to harm you, bad mouth you, make you as lonely as they could and laugh at a you. I met unhappy things, from a good psle grade I got into a good sec sch and I have to face the failure of dropping out because I fail the sec 2 exam, the fact for being such a loser. That was a big big failure for me, sch was everything, without studying I could get into such a good sec school but I drop out, at that moment I couldnt imagine how my sec sch friends will laugh at me, my pri sch friends... so I choose not to contact any of them but eventually I got my thinking sort out after three long years... true friends would always be with you. I wanted to contact back my sec sch friends but I found out a lot had went overseas... (*note I couldnt remember more unhappy things recently)

There are usually more unhappy things than happy things in life. But writing unhappy things down? No, I would write some unhappy things down but I want my blog to be fill of those happy moments... why? because those unhappy things are meant to be forgotten, only happy memories you want to keep right? Like if you got a basket of apples that you want to keep for next time, you would take out the rotten ones out and throw away to prevent them from rotting the others =x and of course, keep the good apples.

So next time I read my blog I will conclude "oh these periods in poly I'm very happy!" lol of course I'm not telling you guys to dont write unhappy things in your blog, it's just everybody's different way of seeing things. But for sure is if you meet any unhappy things or nasty people, try to forget, well you can take revenge if you meet that person again =x same applies to those unhappy things, you can always forget them first and remember them when times comes and needs arise =x lol

Most important things of all write more happy entries!!!!

you understand what I'm saying? lol ^_^

Idol charts

2004-11-02T04:06:00.000+08:00

I always have this chart thingy on my mind well... cause I usually like so many artist and singers I couldn't remember them very well if I don't write them down... lol

But my favorites had always been the same few of course! So what do I mean by favorites? Lemme explain... favorites are actually the stars that you would always choose first when their new album or drama is out. For example, I really like Fir's song that time (That time only!) then I was checking out the music shop and I really wanted to buy Fir's cd... but instead I bought my all time favorite's elva!

Favorite Taiwan Artist - Elva! (no doubt is elva!! But I think everybody should know elva so I shouldn't post her pics! Maybe next time =x)

Favorite Hong Kong Artist - Bobo Chan (not so famous but her swimshow drama nice!)

Bobo Chan

Favorite China Artistv-vGao Yuan Yuan & Liu Yi Fei (Two artist from china, out of the few thousand stars of china I only like the two =x they act those wuxia show damn nice. Will Talk more about them at next entry.)

Gao Yuan Yuan

Liu Yi Fei

Favorite Japan Artist - Utada Hikaru (Best! Her easy breezy got me crazy! Lol of course I like her long time ago, but their new English album is a must get for everybody. I assume u guys know her right lol so no pics.)

Favorite Korean Artist - Son Ye-Jin!!!! (Yes u heard correctly! Her summer scent show really nice lol though I only discover the nice* after 1 year, its not late at all! I actually miss the whole show when it shown first on channel 55 or 56, then miss half when channel 56 replay at 3pm+ but caught a bit and realize the show is not bad! So I'm currently watching it every sat night at channel U now!)

Soo Ye Jin

Soo Ye Jin! (the girl not the guy =x)

Soo Ye Jin

Think that's all for now =x getting late.. nite!

what am i doing these 3 days

2004-10-31T13:30:00.000+08:00

i was as usual surfing on a story web, where a lot of different web authors from china, taiwan and hong kong post their stories. Then i saw a big big notice "looking for script! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxx" well basically they are lookin for a nice story which they can make it into script for their new drama. They also mentioned 2 male actor which will be in the drama whom i'm not so interested, for your info its HE RUN DONG and CHEN KUN, well don't think u guys will know anyway. But the leading female is the korean actress SUN YI ZHEN(dunno her korean name ><)! NOOoo, she's my favorite korean actress, now i'm stuck between trying or not trying for the script, its one month till deadline and requires 80,000 words.. OMG..
You know what I'm talkin? If dunno nevermind, cos I dont know what I'm talking also.. arghh back to the intensive writing...

erm...ya?

2004-10-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

what a lousy day... i was sooooo full of ideas for my story writing stuff these few days and that "dont-intend to return my sis game" thing got my mood to the bottom! arh.. now Im thinking if everytime i look at my this story and it reminds me of that guy.... that would be just too HORRIBLE....

Well to update we were negotiating (arh spelling wrong) the amount of money to return me. Or they buy another same game disk to return. Then they say alright, they will pay me back for the disk. So i was thinking... *sigh* i'll have to go find the disk for my sis then, so i found online it was about sg dollars 30 bucks (not include shippin cost) and I'm sure the game was more expensive BEFORE.. My aunt bought the game when it has just been released... so i say alright why dun u say farking pass me that 30 bucks and I'll go and order online paying the shippin cost MYSELF. OR IF U want me to show u the receipt I CAN, but for wasting my precious time u will have to pay for the shipping cOSt also. Then he sms back and say I'll tell u tomorrow... wth... I was damnit afraid to waste another day so i sms alright alright i give u the website link and u go order can? u buy finish then pass me back. (note that was the game official taiwan web, selling at much cheaper price) then that farker sms back and say tml i tell u...... arh not again.. if i dun get it settle soon i wont have the mood to continue my chinese story!!!

hmm i dun think i will lend out anything to any guys anymore!

FRUSTRATED

Down...

2004-10-27T16:57:00.000+08:00

Come to think of it, i just realise i wasn't too happy today lol, here comes this story.

I'm a person who is very willing to loan out my stuff... seriously... then in my sec school years i met some friends who are as into gaming as me, well i mean chinese rpg. So after a chat this guy came to me and ask if I could borrowed my Twin Heroes 2 cd, I hesitate for a moment cause that was my sis's game and that game was gift from my aunt when my mum visited hong kong. But I felt that guy was trustworthy and it seems that the game (original) cannot be found in sg, so i talk to my sis and loan him the disk.
Well months passed, i asked them for it back and they say they havent finish playing, so i was like... "alright, it takes time to complete" when did they borrowed? it was June 2003 when they borrowed. I have to stress again, this game is not mine, if i loan out i have to get it back! So i asked them again this year april 2004, and this guy say he will get back to me and ask me out to pass the cd back. But I waited and waited... nothing happen, my sis was getting angry cause its really my fault to lend out the disk to some not-trustworthy person.
Then yesterday I sms this guy again, please note I even loan him another of my elva disk last time with that game. And this time he sms back and said he lost the game
it... it was like one year plus a couple of months then he informed me he lost it... I was like wth? I sms him back and told him to buy the same game disk to return my sis, and excuses again he said he needed some time to search for it. My sis got fed up of course, what kind of guy is he? so.. -_-.. lame and crap. We waited for the reply and of course got angry again to recap it's been so long and we dont see any that they have the intention to return us the game disk. Then i sms back and and ask him to pay me back the game price, it's original and of course a few times of the price of pirated cd. So I'll get it back myself then, and guess what i received? "wth, if you wan me to pay money please show receipt, so what if it's a gift?" then i went zzzz... why did i ever trusted this kind of person? I think my elva cd he don't intend to return also... *sigh*

dreaming?

2004-10-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

writing contest... i found one writing contest at the blogger main page! those interested please go take a look! ^_^ its about finishing a 50000 word novel in 1 month... recalling about.. i wrote a forbidden love for 20,000+ for about 2 weeks lol... of course thanks to my great editing and screen shooting team mates Jermie! Scopio! Vomit! Momo! Wenny! (special thanks to Hoshi who's been with me for the last two contest! Shijie you are the best!) that make us come first in the role playing story contest. First in every role playing contest ek held lol.. (and if u ask me if i'm participating, nope is the answer lol, first i dun feel like writin english story at the moment but i might change my mind though..)

I'm trying to jump out of the small circle of writing into a bigger competition, but thats something thats hard though... but recently, I'm quite happy about breaking thru my writer's mid point crisis. Lemme describe the author mid point crisis nono it's not that I've reach 40 ahem, I'm 18. Its about feeling your story is crap yet you can think of no ways to improve it, and then you left your story un-attended for more than a year because you just don't feel like touching them. I've written chinese/english romance stuffy, chinese wu xia story, chinese myths story, and fantasy english story. Breakthru my mid point crisis for the chinese/english romance story long ago, just breakthru a wu xia chinese story, and very recent I just flip back a old old story chinese myths story I've done and make a complete change to the plotting and I felt wow! I seems to have suceeded in breaking thru my mid point crisis of myths stories! That was a wonderful feeling, u felt u have improved!

During these three years of writing life, I realise something when you are participating in some competition, you must write your story with confident like you are damn sure your story would come in first - write your story as number 1 story.
Then... Love your characters, your story characters, cause if you don't like them, nobody else would.

Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan

2004-10-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

What is Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan you may ask me... I would answer its a game that got me addicted to the world of fantasy.

*ahem story telling time*
In 1998, during my Pri6 break I went to Hong Kong to visit my granny and aunt. It was quite boring though, cause the weather was a bit cold for us (sg children) we didn't go out too often in hong kong. Then my aunt introduced us a dos game. The first version of xian jian qi xia zhuan. It was a game with a nice graphic (at that time) with a beautiful story. We stayed in hong kong for 3 weeks, of course didn't manage to finish that chinese rpg game. As the game was installed into the harddisk (no cd burner at that time) I couldn't bring it back to singapore. So after we went back, me and my sis went searching up and down for that game. Sadly it was no where to be found in singapore. Hoho luckily after i enter sec school my friend introduce me to ff8 to play! lol thats another story again.

Years passed but I didn't forget about xian jian, cause its a very very nice game, though the grahpic of technology improved, I still wanted to play the game badly as I wanted to know the endinggg, In 2000, by chance we came across a dos game downloading web, we found xian jian lol! Great but we are not using broadband at that time, so we took about 8 hours non stop watching the com at midnight till morning to make sure the file is still downloading (not broken)... lol yup we did downloaded it and replay the whole thing + complete the ending!! But we were surprised the ending was a bad one, a tragic...

Then the we were back to our ff series again, thumbs up to squaresoft aka square-enix now, their games were brilllant!

In 2002 (about there) we replay xianjian again with the brand new graphic softworld release, lemme tell u its the most brillant chinese game ever! Though the ending was still a disappointing one.

And finally up to today, we found out channel U will be showing the latest game drama... it was a complicated feeling, you waited for it yet afraid that it would disappoint you again, nah, not in terms of the ending, the ending was always like that but I'm more afraid to the way the new drama express the show... *sigh* guess you wont understand also... ah my ling er... *sobs*

Hope the new show would be a good one, anyway, the new star for ling er, liu yi fei is super beautiful lol... thats something I'm quite happy about. Generally I think the cast are alright, I'm just afraid of the script writer.

So go play Xian Jian! NOte* is Xing Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan, dont go buy the XIan JIan Qi Xia Zhuan 2 or 3, its completely different and 2 is super erm ... -_- not nice..... cos the main story is about some other unrelated ppl. 3 I havent try but I would suggest you go to the first Xian Jian first! Oh btw Xuan Yuan Jian series not bad also, I've started on Xuan Yuan JIan 3 and it was really nice. Havent complete 4 and 5 yet, you can find those chinese game at popular or big computer game shop. Made by SoftWorld. Buy Original! It wont cost a lot. Those game are worth with it with their big big nice boxes!

Back to bloggin

2004-10-25T13:37:00.000+08:00

*shouts* guys and girls I'm back to bloggin! From the past experience of 4 different blogs I'm created somewhere, I realise that always at first, you will be super enthu* about updating your blog, then you will realise you have nothing more to write... then you will give up bloggin eventually... So a piece of advice for all those out there, once you start bloggin, dont ever stop for more than a day! Or you might not have to mood to keep your blog alive again!!

Right wonder what makes me come back?
Reason 1. Huihui call and told me about Mr rays blog, went to peep and suddenly thought its time for me to update my blog also ^_^ <---(what a fake smile) =xx
Reason 2. For those that have not seen me for a long time, =x I will do some updating to let you guys know what I've been doing lol.

Topic 1. Things I've been doing - I've been doing some freelancing writing stuff, if my work got approve, I will get some money, if they don't want them I get no money lol... well thats about what I've been doing everyday, thinking of what to write and updating the stories I've been working on while I have the time, I'm so afraid the next sem would start and I have no more time for any story writing stuff. Especially when I'm so stupid to sign up for 2 cds... hope I just got 1...

Topic 2. Exam Results - Ok, for the first time I'll publish my results on the web!! Not too happy about my results...though
Accounting - B+
Marco-Econs - B+
Communication Skills - B
IISO - B
CMSY - C
(Awwww where have my As gone??)
Seriously i was expecting at least an A for my Econs, considering I got a 82 for my little term test... but i think the final paper was way difficult than wat I've expected and my slacking cause my grade to go down... so sad.. but nvm I'll work harder next sem.. no more skipping of lectures for me! ^_^

Topic 3. Alert Alert! 2 degrees in 5 years. This 2 degrees for 5 years thing is offered by The university of New South Wales, an aussie university. Basically you could take 2 degrees and graduate in 5 years, it is said that the grads from these courses is very popular to big companies. The university will sort of set up a school in Singapore and start offering courses like that in 2007. Fellow classmates interested please remember you have to get average B for poly results to get in. JC students have to get As or Bs to get in. But for the first year the students they take in would be very limited so its no guarantee u will get in if you reach their basic requirement results, I think it would be much more difficult to get in. Anyway a good luck to all my classmates whom will be going separate ways with me next sem, you guys are great and I wouldnt forget you guys! Work harder and we might see each other at University!

Well written more for today, thanks for reading.. *Back to work time*

I'm relaxed!

2004-10-09T11:40:00.000+08:00

yayyyyyy exams finally over! nothing can describe my stress during examinations and no words can describe my happiness after the examinations lol finally i can go back to all my gamesss! wanted to complete my ffx sphere grid with ultimate weapon, which take up sooooo much time, i completed ffx ending three times (replay three times cos i did something wrong infront.. silly..) working on the third perfect data to complete my half complete sphere grid.. i wan to beat all dark aeons kick their ass! Star ocean, till the end of time is not bad also, might get the cd soon. waiting for my chinese romance of three kingdom 10 to come out... also i'm currently playing on gba rom harvest moon, friends of the mineral town, alf just show me yesterday and i go wowww, its exactly like the "back to nature" yes with same faces same names, Karen, Ann, Mary yes! new features added, some bad and time wasting stuff removed! this time i wan to complete my uncomplete harvest moon on my pc!! but i'm having some serious controlling problem as its so damn hard to get use to gba keys on pc... lol im getting back to the game.. happy happy ^_^

Exam Period

2004-10-05T11:52:00.000+08:00

Aw finally I'm done for my first 2 papers for the exam... and i can say accounting sucks man -_- the paper isn't hard but the mcqs wasted lots of my precious time and when I'm left with the last question of 29marks (or somewhere there, its a 100 marks paper) I'm left with the last 25 mins (exam is 2 hours) or so and i panicked.. at that moment i felt like jumping out of my seat and tearing that stupid paper away... but for a moment again... i spend about 2 sec thinking it's not worth it and got back to my accounting paper again... well i sort of finish the paper with a 6marks question left blank though, the steps are correct I'm sure but I'll have stupid careless and calculation errors cos no time to check through and i basically rush through the whole paper.. i got a A for my accounting coursework, just hope i dont do too badly for the paper so i can get a B for my overall...

The other subject was IISO, glad to hear from hweehwee that our project group everybody got a B for the coursework, and damnit the IISO paper was 3 hours! when i the examiner says start i quickly write down the points to every answer first before i forgot and i think hmm this iiso should be quite easy, i should get a B or a A. But 1 and half hour pass and i was like.... -_- why...? cos the paper was damnit long! Its not about whether u know how to do it, its about whether you have any energy left to complete it. At that 1 and half hour point, some thoughts cross my mind (cos the weather is so hot at the sports hall)that was "LET ME DIE!" -_- my hands are so tired from all the writings... and i have to say again, the sports hall is hot and crazy... i just peep on raymonds blog and he said his answers was short... well my answers were quite long.. again it might means im long winded(as usual).. but i still manage to finish it in 2hrs and 35 mins, think i can get a B for my overall IISO for sure lol...

Its a bonus break day today, I'll run down to kino to get some manga with alf wahah!! and get back to the studying tomorrow for my econs and Horrible cmsy lol

Exams.. stress O_O

2004-10-02T13:55:00.000+08:00

Exams on monday! I cannot believe it, oh man i feel I'm running out of time -_-... but i still havent touch on much of my iiso... and less mention accounting.. *sigh* not in the best mood to study.... help.. blah..
At first thought i'll go back to school to study but in the end I'm just tooo lazy to get everything done... guess it will be awhile for me to update blog cos i'll be busy studying my subjects.. noooooo i dun wan to take sub papers!

Friends Part 1

2004-09-30T11:48:00.000+08:00

Ok since my daily life revolves around studying and examination, i guess i shouldn't talk more about it that much... you will be surprise that most of the days im doing the same old thing... thinkin of story ideas and how to start it... -_-
Alright lets talk about friends at my different stage of life.

I remember way back, i have a few frens that accompany from kindergarten to the same primary school. They are children from the same neighborhood thats why we often play together in lesson time... They are at my age ^_^ about 3 girls, Clarice, Janice and Shiling, one guy name WenYong! Oh man spelling might be wrong though =x but i still remember their name! My memory is bad but its great to remember them, my best friend used to be janice, she went to the same primary school with me, and though we are of the different class...(bad luck i think 6 years never get to same class before) we still remain contact with each other. I'll drop by her house quite often to borrow cds and foolscape paper lol! But as we grew older, we have our own group of friends and drift further apart... until she went to secondary school, we lose contact completely... hmm quite sad though, but I wish her all the best in her jc life right now, she’s a very intelligence girl, she would definitely in jc by now!

That's about it I guess lol, I'll write more about friends at my next stage of life, my primary school friend!! They are one big whole group of friends that I wish to turn back time and re-live my primary school life for! (despite the nasty teachers I've met..)

My problems...

2004-09-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

Everybody has got their own problems... after reading some of my friends blog, i decided to add in some of my problem....

About money, the root of all evil! (I have to agree with elim chew, she mentioned money has got no character, it is it's owner who can decides whether to make good use of the money and all such stuff...)

1) Buy things without consideration - i always bought things without much consideration, if i like i will buy... like i've spent a total of $400 on ayumi stuff when i like her a lot last time, now i dunno where i've dump those things.. then i spent a whole $300 on utada hikaru stuff which i still like ^_^ her things is kept properly at my cardboard.
2) Spent too much... after working for a few month i managed to save about $2000 after giving my mum some of my earnings. Then i bought a com which cost 1200+, my bank is left with 800+ then yesterday i realise my bank is left with only a hundred bucks!! X_X......... guess i spent too much... *sobS*

Problems i have with my stories....
- I always have too many ideas for the stories... havent write finish one story, my brain jump to another story..... and thats why i have no mood to complete the previous story! NOOOOOOOOOOO!

Can anybody help me! >.<

MIdi of the month!

2004-09-28T15:10:00.000+08:00

Note: Placed the midi in the blog and felt weird and decide to take it out =x

Playing eternity from ffx-2. Hope you like it, if you don't like can tell me, i'll change midi once a month! ^_^
talking about songs and mp3s, my fav would be the osts from the final fantasy series! Especially the midi u are listening to now, eternity. It's just soooo nice =x
yeah not to forgot to wish a Happy mooncake festival to all of you guys out there! Lucky ms christine lim hwee rong reminded me ^_^ otherwise i would have forgotten =x and thanks hweehwee for thanking me lol =x hwee hwee dun blurblur liao hor, anything dunno can ask me, if i dunno also i will help you ask others lol!
kk thats all i can think of... must go back back to my iiso for now...

Aeris and Tifa Part 1

2004-09-27T18:25:00.000+08:00

Note: I realise i wrote this entry with pretty bad english (thats 'cause i'm watching some show at the same time =x) so this is the version after some editing.

Do I hate Tifa? I keep askin myself when alf showed me the latest trailer (a blur trailer on a jap exibition somebody film down)of ff ac. I always had arguments with alf when she showed me trailers + pics on ff ac, maybe its jealousy that the movie features so much of tifa but not even one shot of aeris from the front view up to todays trailer. I think i do not hate tifa, but alf said that because aeris died, i put all the sorrow and hate to cloud tifa and the other chars.... nevertheless i wish to "declare" that i don't hate tifa....it's just that i prefer aeris a lot more than tifa. Aeris is still my top favorite game/anime character after 6 years..

heres a pretty pic of aeris ^_^

Monday blue.. yeah

2004-09-27T18:07:00.000+08:00

I just set up a test and preview version of my blog for uploading pics purposes, please do not visit it if you seen it anywhere in my profile or what... only this blog is the actual version where i always update....

Anyway.... havin monday blue currently.... drag my bro and sis with me to tp to help me print out lecture notes... what a boring day... wanted to get started for the revisions but the day just make me feel sooooo slack....

List of things i have to do -
revise for exams - 4 subjects
get done for my homepage
complete the pk story i promise so many ppl
complete the basic concept of the latest story
uploadin my constello story into my new homepage

*yawns* seems that i have a lot of things to do... but readers out there, if u are having the same whole big list of things to do, please plan ur times properly.... do the more important first and leave whats not so for later..... thats all for now.......................

Happy Birthday to Mr Handsome!

2004-09-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to Robby!!
Robby you are finally 18 lol, a big boy now... must be good and listen to teachers + parents lol! Happy birthday, hope you spend today like the best day in your life ever!

i will cry my heart out...

2004-09-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

This morning as usual, i was greeted by my beloved dog, jasmine when i came out of my room. My heart sank when i looked at her, she look young and so small, but in fact she's been with me for about 6 years... and i don't know how to count dog's age.... i dont know if I'm thinking a bit too much but i notice her teeth wasnt as good, i felt like crying whenever i realise she's gonna leave me one day.... I didn't know how to take care of her when she was young and i regretted it alot... i never abuse her but i didnt care a lot for her also last time. I was just too young... it's so sad...
I dont even know how I'm going to take it if she leaves me one day... I've been watching a drama series name The no8 pawnshop, you can pawn anything to demons in exchange for anything. Including frenship, love, hands, arm or anything.... If there's such place, i hope to share my life span with my beloved jasmine and have her acompany through my lifetime in good health.
but crap, i know those place doesn't exist... *sigh* maybe i'm really thinking alot lately....

Anyway here's a pic of jasmine ^_^

My beloved!!! ....homepage....

2004-09-26T13:31:00.000+08:00

From morning till early afternoon I'm still messing with my beloved homepage.... Errrr I wanted to do a nice nice homepage for my pk frens but I just can't settle down with a plain banner =x lucky i have robby to help me design lol.....
Next up - My Homepage coming up!
Here's a look of it if you want a preview, but everything is under construction at the moment~
http://www.freewebs.com/promisedknights/index.html
I might post the constello series i've written for ek competition up also... but that depends on my mood =x

thanks cheese thumbs up!

2004-09-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

cheese wanted to sent me a song, the piano player by mak sim, hmm no idea who's that cos i dun really listen to english songs nowadays. was talking and talkin to him on msn and he mentioned "Hopefully one day i can play this kind of music" therefore i hope to dedicate this entry to him and tell him to never give up on his dreams!!! "Hold on to dreams for if dreams die, life is like a broken wing bird that cannot fly!" I still remember my presentation for com skill on dreams and ambitions -_- it was a disaster.... but still every now and then i would tell my frens to keep on dreamin! cos dreams keep us going!

ps: I'll be back as a better speaker for com skill 2 next year! haha I promised! lala~ and btw the quote is by somebody, i forgot the name though.... =x

Bad plots!!

2004-09-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

Been watching the 7pm channel8 drama again, it's one of the drama that i wouldn't miss during my weekends break. But again.... I've already seen 3 versions of the same story and the fact remains that i still prefer zhou zhirou a lot more than zhao min. (Though zhou zhirou is the evil one.) it's the author to blame! even professional readers prefer zhou zhi rou and believes that this character shouldn't turn evil! Bad plottin........ anyway Im gonna skip tomorrow's episode, hahah yup its the part where zhou zhi rou reveal her "evil martial arts" and hurt zhao min! Yup i do not pity zhao min, she should be hurt =xx=x (better dun let alf know, cos she anti zhirou, and loves* zhao min) It's so sad to see zhirou turn evil. Awwww what a sad story character......

Anyway, here's a pic of her~

Morning Blueeeeeeeeee

2004-09-25T17:57:00.000+08:00

Elim Chew rocks

this morning we were at a NE school talk and i was like......... not again -_- "should be a boring talk.... i guess"
Then things started as usual, briefings about the NE messages, national songs........blah blah
But when the speaker came out, everything was different!!! O_O The talk was on changing mindset and bringing wealth, basically telling the youngsters about the business world and how to start a entreuprxxxship (forgot spelling) it was a really nice talk! Thumbs UP! If i were given a chance to attend such talks again i would definitely go!!! hoho

Last day of the sem? sobs

2004-09-25T01:14:00.000+08:00

Last day...............
The last day of the sem with my cute classmates - this blog is actually dedicated to my first bunch of TP classmates, TB008 Rocks! it's so sad to think that we will lose contact over the times, so i actually set up this blog to keep updated with their daily news and also to let them know whats going on in my life! oh well though sem is over, the exams are not!!! and Mr ray is still telling me to go play wc =x well any games to recommend anybody?? I need a new game to keep me occupied after exams. Oh well talkin bout my favorite stuff at the moment, nope... it's not gaming... Its tv junkies time. I sounds like sunny =x right, I really like the 8pm shows (just ended a yesterday >.<) name Aqua Heroes. Perhaps I'll talk about it more at my next post!

First POST!!

2004-09-24T20:37:00.000+08:00

@_@!
I'm feeling a bit dizzy due to the long time spent looking at the lcd monitor........ finalllyyy i found out the errors of my blog and manage to use my limited html skill to correct it. Wahahahah!! But warning, this site is still under construction!! I'll come back and look at the designs every now to edit the template for the best viewing purposes =x